She hadn’t tasted the sweetness of His love. Like many of us, she longed for love but didn’t know she would need the love that would quench this longing in the depth of us.
Love is just an innate need. Not just superficial, earthly, human love; something more than that.
Her need resounded like many of ours. We wash it in down in alcohol, fancy clothes, cars, our children our husbands, drugs, our so called passions. Yet the vacuum lies there like a gaping hole that needs to be filled.
She couldn’t by her own strength. We cannot fill that gaping hole by our own strength. There must be more to life than all this, she said. But there were no forth coming answers so she said she would end the struggle that made no sense.
And here started Gods rehearsal to strengthen my heart muscles. Needed to stretch them for the real thing. My heart was stretched to limits I never knew. I knew that the love she was looking for was hers for free but no talking, no threatening, nothing could convince her of the goodness, the truth, the depth of His love.
He said this was His to teach us all, not just me what love is. All of us, thus I share this story.
60 plus sleeping tablets, best team of nurses and doctors and 48 hours later, she was up and about but dissatisfied she failed with the attempt on her life. No. She was angry she had failed.
But we were thanking God for yet another miracle on her life; she had made it . All indications were it was a full fledged battle not in the realm as we know it. So nothing physical we did could do much here.
He said let Me take over here.
And life went on. School, work, kids, traffic. At the back of our minds we knew it’s not over yet but we weren’t ready for what came next.
They say it was just a cut on her leg that caused it but now the battle had gone full fledged. In a week her blood was poisoned enough to have her readmitted in serious condition. She found out God is not through with her so she let out a cry for help.
He answered.
3 days later a stranger at her bedside told her, the battle is over and He has it in control. Could she believe He loves her with a love beyond all? She said she did. She rested.
The battle ended and begun the knowledge and experience of Gods love; in His bossom. Her hearts desire to understand love fulfilled.
Even now, dear friend, my tears fall with love for you,
Tears for the pain that you must have felt,
Tears for the joy that you are free
Tears of joy that you are in the arms of the definition of love
Tears in the fact that we didn't grow old together
Tears of gratitude and reverence of you Lord.
Rest my friend in the blossom of Love. You got a first class ticket to heaven on the express train. Keep room for us, meanwhile, we'll let your shine here on earth.
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